March 2012 will forever be etched in my memory. It was the month that my husband told me he no longer loved me after 14 years together. To say that I felt sucker punched in the gut is an understatement. Although we were in an extremely difficult season of life—two small children, living with my parents while we built our dream home, both working full time, and on top of that I was recovering from a hysterectomy–I never dreamed that my husband was unhappy and I certainly never imagined that he’d want to hurt me or our children. The next few months are honestly a blur….all a bad dream as he officially asked me for a divorce that summer.
In the months that followed, I felt lost, broken, rejected, lonely and much like the gum on the bottom of someone’s shoe. I pleaded with my husband not to break up our family and to tell me “why.” If I just knew “WHY” I could fix it. If I just knew “WHY” then I could promise to do everything in my power to make things right. If I just knew “WHY” I would pray for God to restore our marriage. Didn’t I deserve a chance to right any wrongs after 14 years and two children? Unfortunately, I didn’t get my second chance and my children and I were left to pick up the pieces.
It’s now been three years since that March. I can’t say that it doesn’t still hurt, but I can say that God is definitely healing and is using me in ways that I never imagined. As I reflect on this season of my life, I’ve often wondered…what if God didn’t give second chances? Could you imagine how different our world would be? Could you imagine how lost and hopeless we would be? But here’s the beautiful thing, my friends….God does give second chances! We don’t have to worry about pleading for a second chance. It doesn’t matter what we have done, whom we have hurt, what mistakes we have made or whether we have been a believer for 50 years or for five….God is the master redeemer!
Colossians 1:14 says, “In whom we have redemption through his blood, [even] the forgiveness of sins”
What an amazing God we have! Is there something you need redemption for today? Do you feel ashamed or like God would never give you a second chance? I’m here to tell you that He will. All you have to do is ask Him.
Love and Blessings,
Inspirer’s Note: Before publishing this post, I sent my ex-husband a copy of this blog for his approval so that he wouldn’t be blind-sided. As the father of my children, I respect his feelings and my intent is not to hurt him with my words but to find purpose in this pain.