Today I am 49 years old……….so weird. I don’t feel 49, I don’t think I look 49 (until I look in the mirror! Ha!) and I don’t think I act 49. But, I am 49!!!
My birthdays are very interesting. For some reason most of them are reflective and a little melancholy. For years I hated my birthday for personal reasons I won’t go into. The enemy is the master deceiver and I listened to his deceptions for a long time. What is so ridiculous is that I let him lie to me. Do any of you do this? Listen to his lies? Well, it is time to shut his mouth. Period. I think this post may help us do that.
Today started off different. I was ready to seize my day and celebrate. And I did for a little while. Then I just sort of sank…..listening to those lies again. Forty nine years and I thought about the time I have wasted. I thought about the time I lived for me and not for others. I thought about my selfish tendencies and my own self centered nature. Has this life brought Him glory or has it been spent seeking glory for myself? Like my favorite apostle Paul, I do the things I shouldn’t do and the things I should do, well, it seems like I don’t always get to them. Frustration and inadequacy set in. Then I heard God tell me to pick up my copy of “Jesus Today”. He had me buy this little book at Christmastime. How and why I bought it is a long story but trust me, it was totally a God thing! So, this afternoon I turned to my reading for today. I read the 3 verses that came with the devotional:
“The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases, His mercies never come to an end; they are new every morning; great is your faithfulness“. Lamentations 3:22-23
“ I will greatly rejoice in the Lord, my soul shall be joyful in my God; for He has clothed me with the garments of salvation, He has covered me with the robe of righteousness, as a bridegroom decks himself with ornaments, and as a bride adorns herself with her jewels.” Isaiah 61:10
And then the last one…..there it was staring me in my face. Staring straight into the depths of my heart, straight into the questions in my head, straight into my doubts as I wondered if I am really fulfilling God’s purpose for me. There it was…
“For God so loved the world, that He GAVE His only Son, that whoever believes in Him should not perish but have eternal life.” John 3:16
Like lightening I immediately got my pen and wrote right underneath this verse, ” HAPPY BIRTHDAY RENE’, THIS IS THE ONLY GIFT YOU NEED….EVER!!!!!
Talk about sobering up to truth in a flash. People, the ultimate gift was given for me and you. If you are alive, you are here for a reason and it is NOT about me or you. It is not about how we “feel” about ourselves or how we “feel” from one day to the next. It is not about whether you “do” what you should do or what you shouldn’t “do”. IT IS ALL ABOUT HIM!
You may be saying “Rene’, I know this.” But let me ask you, do you really? It doesn’t matter where you are in your walk with God, what matters is are you walking? In walking we are giving of ourselves. In walking we are saying we may not feel like the day ahead but we do it because HE deserves our walk. We do it because HE took a walk. The Son of God took the longest most humiliating, painful and grievous walk that has ever been taken or will ever be taken. He walked so we can WALK and LIVE. He walked so that on those days that we don’t feel like walking, His power is made perfect in our weakness. He walked and gave His life so that we get new mercies every morning, garments of salvation, a robe of righteousness and eternal life. He walked because He loves us. There is no greater gift on any day, but especially on a birthday. So, walk the rest of this day out and shut the mouth of the enemy. Let your steps be so loud for the Kingdom of God that all the noise of the enemy is silenced and he can’t talk, let alone walk…….
Gettin’ my party on!